所以… So...
说说你自己吧。 tell me about yourself.
你想知道些什么？ What would you like to know?
我不知道，只是一些基本的。 I don't know, just the basics.
嗯… Erm...
你来自哪里，你的职业是什么…… Where are you from, what do you do in life...
除了…… besides...
嗯… Erm...
我叫塞巴斯蒂安。 Well, my name's Sebastian.
我24了。 I'm twenty-four.
——来自爱丁堡。-哦… - From Edinburgh. - Oh...
我好像听到了口音。 I thought I heard an accent.
你还好吗？-是的。 Are you okay? - Yeah.
噢,是的。 Oh yeah.
是的。好。噢,是的。噢,是的。-趴到你背上。 Yeah. Good. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. - Get on your back.
噢,是的。 Oh yeah.
快了。你要我去吗？ I'm getting close. Do you want me to come?
哦，操，是的。是的,是的。-你确定吗？ Oh fuck, yeah. Yeah, yeah. - Are you sure?
是的,是的。 Yeah, yeah.
噢,是的。 Oh yeah.
跟我说说你自己吧。 So tell me about yourself.
你想知道些什么？ What would you like to know?
哦，我不知道，只是一些基本的。嗯… Oh, I don't know, just the basics. Erm...
我必须承认，我有点担心 I must admit, I was a bit worried
当你不发脸照的时候，但是… when you wouldn't send a face pic, but...
你很帅。 you're very handsome.
你是新手吗？ Are you quite new to this?
麦克斯，马洛恩的评论怎么样了？ Max, how is the Marloan review coming along?
星期五你就能拿到。这么说吧…… You'll have it by Friday. Let's just say...
二年级低潮是一种委婉的说法。 sophomore slump is a kind way of putting it.
LLF刚刚宣布了艾琳娜·卡萨罗。 For LLF, they've just announced Alina Casaro.
我很乐意……-有迹象表明 I would love to... - There's been some indication
她可能会接受采访，但我们以前都听说过。 she might give an interview, but we've all heard that before.
至于伊斯顿·埃利斯， As for Easton Ellis,
他的人今早才确认。 his people just confirmed this morning.
我想这是给你的。-我不是先问过吗？ I think this one's for you. - But didn't I ask first?
事实上，我觉得麦克斯比你先做了，但无论如何， Actually, I think Max beat you to it, but in any case,
我认为这是最好的 I do think it best
酷儿作家覆盖酷儿作者。 that queer writers cover queer authors.
难道每个人都不能写点什么吗？ Shouldn't anyone be able to write about anything?
这是一个非常顺异性的反应。 That's a very cis-hetero response.
这跟cis有什么关系？ What does cis have to do with it?
我以为这里的首要任务是高质量的报道， I thought that the priority here was quality reporting,
没有光学。 not optics.
这与光学无关。 It's not about optics.
这是关于感性的， It's about sensibility,
敏感度。 sensitivity.
帮我个忙，问我问题吧，麦克斯。 Just do me the favor and run those questions by me, Max.
我相信你知道该问什么，但我需要看到他们 I trust that you know what to ask, but I need to see them
因为我们可能以它为先导。 because we may lead with it.
它们对我来说不是那么明显。 They're not that apparent to me.
我真的倾向于不写我的生活。 I really tend not to write about my life at all.
人们把告密者 >中的故事称为 >。 People point to the story in The Informers called In the Islands,
讲的是一个父亲带着他的儿子… which is about a father who takes his son...
♬我的心，它觉得完整而♬ ♪ My heart, it felt complete and ♪
♬一切都很完美 ♪ Everything was Perfectly aligned [alright] ♪
♬事情就这样发生了 ♪ It happened just like that ♪
♬我们找到了♬ ♪ We found ♪
♬我们的卫星♬ ♪ Our satellites ♪
说真的，这就像一次宗教体验， Seriously, it's like a religious experience,
新的那个。 the new one.
读了这本书，我真的觉得自己变了。 Reading it I really feel changed as a person.
抱歉，我知道我听起来像个傻逼。 Sorry, I know I sound like a twat.
她八年来只接受过一次采访。 She's only given one interview in, like, eight years.
不知道她的出版商是怎么放过她的？ Dunno how her publisher let her get away with it?
我觉得神秘感是其中的一部分。 I think the mystique is part of it.
比如，你必须读她的任何作品 Like, you actually have to read any of her work
去了解她的一切。 to understand anything about her.
今天应该能出来。 It should be out today.
哇。 Wow.
真他妈酷。 So fucking cool.
我只是觉得它不显眼。 I just don't think it stands out.
太粗糙了。——什么? It's so unpolished. - What?
不。 No.
正是这种原始感让它如此有效。 It's exactly that rawness that makes it work so well.
你捕捉恋人之间亲密的方式…… The way you capture the intimacy between the lovers and...
然后突然就变成了距离。 you know, then how it suddenly turns to distance.
是啊，像这样把两个时间框叠在一起 Yeah, collapsing those two timeframes together like that
在一瞬间…… in one moment is...
太棒了。 fantastic.
我是说，是的，很有气氛，但是…… I mean, yeah, it's atmospheric, sure, but...
它真的在说什么吗？-马克斯… Is it really saying anything? - Max...
并不是每件事都需要华丽的声明 Not everything needs to be some grand statement
如果观察得好，如果它是真实的。 if it's well-observed, if it's truthful.
这是发自内心的。 This comes from the heart.
这就是为什么它有效。 And that's why it works.
我真的不认为这是别人写的 I really don't think this could've been written by someone
谁……我没有经历过。 who... hadn't lived it.
我不能只写短篇小说 I can't just be stuck writing short stories
并审查其他人的工作 and reviewing other people's work
在我的余生中，Amna。 for the rest of my life, Amna.
你知道布雷特·伊斯顿·埃利斯多大吗 Do you know how old Bret Easton Ellis was
他什么时候出版了他的第一部小说？ when he published his first novel?
21岁。 Twenty-one.
扎迪·史密斯吗? Zadie Smith?
我已经迟到了。 I'm already late.
嗨。 Hi.
请进。 Come on in.
好吧。 Okay.
你是个接吻高手。 You're a great kisser.
谢谢。 Thanks.
抱歉，这里有点乱。 Sorry, it's a bit messy in here.
清洁工明天来。 The cleaner is coming tomorrow.
今早刚从纽约回来。 Just got back from New York this morning.
哦,不错。嗯…工作还是娱乐？ Oh, nice. Erm... Business or pleasure?
业务,不幸的是。 Business, unfortunately.
总是业务。 Always business.
你想喝点什么吗？-是的，我想要一个。 Do you want a drink? - Yeah, I'd love one.
酒吗? Wine?
不管你吃什么都很好。 Whatever you're having is great.
好吧,孩子。 Okay, kid.
你有一个美丽的地方。-谢谢。 You've got a beautiful place. - Thank you.
这只是工作日。我在肯特度过的周末。 It's just for work days. The weekends I spend in Kent.
和家人一起，你知道的。 With the family, you know.
噢,是的。 Oh yeah.
你会让我去吗？-是的。 Are you gonna make me come? - Yeah.
继续。 Keep going.
[丹尼尔]你总是那样做爱吗？ [Daniel] Do you always have sex like that?
你喜欢吗？ Did you like it?
你知道答案。 You know the answer.
你知道…… Do you know...
那个网站上的大多数人都很糟糕。 most of the people on that website are just awful.
有你…有过不好的经历吗？ Have you... had bad experiences?
失望。——嗯。 Disappointments. - Hm.
在网上很难找到像你这样的人。 It's so rare to find someone like you on there.
我的意思是…… I mean...
人们谎报年龄。 people lie about their age.
或者身高或者老二的大小。 Or height or dick size.
这都是夸大其词。 It's all exaggeration.
有些人甚至不是同性恋。 Some of them aren't even gay.
和男人在一起不能太困难。 Can't get it hard with a man.
还好不是每个人都是骗子。 It's so nice that not everyone is deceptive.
塞巴斯蒂安站在伦敦的窗前， "Sebastian stood by the window over London,
以全新的视角看待城市和自己。 looking at both the city and himself with a new perspective.
当丹尼尔不经意地提到他的家人时， As Daniel casually mentioned his family,
他突然觉得自己是一个陈词滥调的同谋， he felt suddenly complicit in a cliché,
演了另一个角色，但不是他自己演的。 acting out another role, but one he hadn't cast himself in.
但以理的手抓住他，拉他的皮肉 Daniel's hands found him and pulled at his skin and flesh
像沙漠中寻找水源的嘴巴一样饥饿。 as hungrily as a mouth seeking water in the desert.
他不只是想要（停顿），他需要。 He didn't just want [pause], he needed.
这是他从家人那里得到的安慰， This was the relief he had from his family,
他的工作，他的生活。 his job, his other life.
在那一刻，塞巴斯蒂安觉得自己还活着 Sebastian in that moment felt that he was living
比丹尼尔更真实。” more authentically than Daniel."
这很好。很好。 That's good. So good.
为了你的研究，你和真正的妓女谈过吗？ Did you speak to actual prostitutes for your research?
我想歌洛莉亚指的是性工作者。 I think Gloria means sex workers.
是的。绝对的。 Yeah. Absolutely.
是什么最初吸引我的话题 What initially drew me to the topic
是我去年为《华尔街》杂志写的一篇文章 was a piece I did for Wall Magazine last year
对学生谁护航。 on students who escort.
我想我被他们中的一些人是多么随意而震惊 I guess I was struck by how casually some of them
谈到了工作。嗯… talked about the work. Erm...
他们一点也不觉得羞耻。 They weren't really ashamed of it at all.
他们不再觉得这是一种耻辱。 They saw very little stigma in it anymore.
他们中的一些人有这样的专业意识 And some of them had such a sense of professionalism
他们将自己定位为企业家 in the way that they set themselves up as entrepreneurs
或者在网上推销自己。 or market themselves online.
几乎是这样的……自豪感。 There was almost this erm... sense of pride.
总之，我无法停止思考 Anyway, I couldn't stop thinking about
我采访过的一些人 some of the people I interviewed
我觉得我必须把它写下来 and just felt like I had to write about it.
我以为现在只有粉丝了。 I thought it was all OnlyFans now.
是的。人们也这样做。 Yeah. People do that, too.
但屏幕永远不会取代触摸。 But a screen will never replace touch.
嗯……这是一种更简单的赚钱方式。 Hm... It's an easier way to earn though.
嗯，培养听众 Hm, to cultivate an audience
这会让你赚很多钱 that'll make you any significant money
需要大量的工作。是的。 takes a lot of work. Yeah.
但你不需要身体上的互动。 But you don't physically need to interact.
是啊，不过有些人确实很享受性爱。 Yeah, but some people do just really enjoy sex though.
他们可能不希望自己的视频永远在网上。 They might not want videos of themselves online forever.
我知道以前有人这么做过， I know someone that used to do it,
当然是在他们年轻的时候。 when they were young of course.
他们并不介意。 They didn't mind it.
我诚实地问她 And I asked her honestly
她是不是觉得有些男人很讨厌。 whether she didn't find some of the men repulsive.
对她来说，这与客户无关。 For her, it wasn't about them, the clients.
是关于她的。这只是… It was about her. That's just...
有人说我像帕特里克·贝特曼因为我描述过 The idea that I'm like Patrick Bateman because I described
一个讨厌女人的男人，我也是这样的男人 a woman-hating man, that I am that man as well,
只是一堆…一派胡言。 is just a load of... bunk.
我有问题的那本书是第一本 The book that I had problems with was the first one
因为大家都以为这是自传 because everyone assumed it was autobiographical
我的家庭和书中的家庭完全不一样。 and my family is really nothing like the family in that book.
所以我觉得这可能是最难的一个 So that was the one I felt might have been the hardest
让你和爸爸带走，因为那是… for you and Dad to take because it was erm...
在外人看来，这是最具自传性的。 To an outsider it was the most autobiographical.
我不认为它的内容让我心烦。 I don't think the content upset me.
事实上，这是一个巨大的打击 The fact that it was such a tremendous hit
它在你很小的时候就对你产生了很大的影响， and it affected you so much at such an early age,
这对我的影响更大 that had much more impact on me
比你写的内容更重要。 than the content of what you'd written.
听着，作为一个作家 Listen, as a writer
我想我有点像社会学家，我想我倾向于 I guess I tend to be a bit of a sociologist and I guess I tend
被文化中正在发生的事情所吸引 to be drawn to things that are happening in the culture
和合并…… and incorporate...
我知道这很肤浅， I know it's superficial,
但你很年轻，也不难看 but you are a young, not unattractive guy
你不应该害怕使用它。 and you shouldn't be afraid to use that.
它只是… It's just...
我不太喜欢社交媒体。 I'm not really big on social media.
我觉得这会分散我的注意力。 I find it to be a distraction.
我不想要复杂的东西， I don't want anything complicated,
每周只发几篇高质量的帖子。 just a couple of quality posts every week.
恐怕这年头没人能说自己超脱了。 I'm afraid nobody gets to say they're above it these days.
那……小说? And what about the... novel?
你看了那几页了吗？ Did you get a chance to look at the pages?
我得说，我一点都不激动 I have to say, I wasn't thrilled
当你说你在写性工作的时候。 when you said you were writing about sex work.
你知道这方面的论文很多吧。 You're aware there's no shortage of treatises on the topic.
但是… But...
我认为它是活的。 I think it is alive.
真正的亲密。 Really intimate.
你可能会找到一个新的视角。 And you might have found a fresh perspective on it.
我确实意识到这是一种…… I do realize it is a sort of...
酷儿文学的典型特征，但是…… stock character of queer literature, but...
新一代的性工作者 this new generation of sex workers
都在使用科技。 are all using technology.
数字骗子。 The digital hustler.
是的。差不多就是这样。——嗯。 Yeah. Something like that. - Hm.
不幸的是，我不能给你预付款， Unfortunately, I can't offer you an advance,
但如果听完这些故事之后 but it would be fantastic if after the stories
我们可以让你的处女作明年出版。 we can get your debut novel published already next year.
你觉得多久能给我一份完整的草稿？ How soon do you think you could get me a full draft?
嗯…几个月？-真的吗？很快吗? Erm... Couple of months? - Oh really. That soon?
我不想太着急。-是的。 Don't want to rush it. - Yeah.
我得多做些调查。嗯,面试。 I've got to do more research. Erm, interviews.
是的。我明白了。 Yes. I understand.
对不起。 Sorry.
你在书页上有什么注释吗？ Did you have any notes on the pages?
是的。 Yes.
还有一件更重要的事我一直在想。 There was one bigger thing I've been wondering about.
你有没有想过把游戏设置成第一人称？ Have you thought about setting it in the first person?
就像一本回忆录。 Almost like a memoir.
一本伪回忆录。 A pseudo memoir.
这不是我想过的。 It's not something I'd thought about.
我是说，这可能行不通。 I mean, it might not work.
我只是觉得有些东西。 I just think there's something there.
♬跳舞，在灯灭的时候跳舞 ♪ Dancing, Dancing with the lights out ♪
♬跳舞，和…♪ ♪ Dancing, dancing with... ♪
-去开门。去开门。-我知道了。 - Get the door. Get the door. - I got it.
这值得庆祝。 This calls for celebration.
到目前为止只讲了几章。 It's just a couple of chapters so far.
麦克斯，一定会很棒的。 Max, it's gonna be amazing.
我对你有信心。 I have faith in you.
♬随着节奏打开就像哦哇哦 ♪ Open to the rhythm Like oh wah wah ♪
♬从你的骨子里感受它，就像哦恰恰恰恰 ♪ Feel it in your bones Like oh cha-cha-cha ♪
♬你想我了吗？♪ ♪ Did you miss me? ♪
嗨。 Hi.
我们见过面吗？ Have we met?
我不这么认为。 Don't think so.
你在哪上的大学？你看起来很眼熟。 Where do you go to uni? You look so familiar.
伦敦大学学院，但我刚毕业，所以… UCL, but I finished a while ago, so...
你叫什么名字？ What's your name?
嗯…Max。我是马克斯。 Erm... Max. I'm Max.
你确定吗？ Are you sure?
嘿。让我拿上我的外套。我来抽支烟。 Hey. Let me just grab my jacket. I'll come for a smoke.
嗯…事实上，我得走了。 Erm... Actually, I'm gonna have to go.
我刚想起来我有个截止日期。 I just remembered I've got a deadline.
哦……Grindr调用。——这是…不是那样的。 Oh... Grindr calls. - It's... It's not that.
很高兴见到你。 Well, it was very nice to meet you.
所以，我读了你的新稿子。 So, I read your new pages.
我觉得这个角色很吸引人 I think the character is really intriguing
你的散文一如既往地生动， and your prose is vivid as ever,
但我只是想知道它是否有点重复。 but I just wonder if it gets a little repetitive.
这一系列相同种类的…遇到 This series of the same kinds of erm... encounters
通常都是老男人。 with generally always older men.
我只是想知道它会是什么样子 I'm just wondering what it might look like
看到他在一个稍微不同的情况下。 to see him in a slightly different situation.
只是为了让它更多样化 Only to give it a bit more variety
也许是为了探索他对新环境的反应。 and maybe to explore how he might react to a new context.
而且，我只是有点不知所措 Also, I was just a little thrown
关于塞巴斯蒂安的嗯… by the bit about Sebastian's erm...
间断性的羞耻感和… intermittent feelings of shame and the erm...
你是怎么说的？ how did you put it...
对羞耻感到羞耻，这完全说得通， shame about shame, which definitely makes sense,
但我以为你说过 but it's just that I thought you said
你惊讶于羞耻是如此之少 you were struck by how little shame
你的面试官感觉。 your interviewers felt.
我今晚会把我的新章节发给你。 I'll send you my new chapters tonight.
急于在提交之前得到你的想法。 Anxious to get your thoughts before the submission.
嘿,塞巴斯蒂安。-嗨。 Hey, Sebastian. - Hi.
很高兴你能来。来吧。 Glad you could make it. Come on through.
我们有朋友过来。我希望你不介意。 We got friends over. I hope you don't mind.
哦……好,山姆。你好。 Oh... Nice, Sam. Hello.
儿子，你叫什么名字？请进。 What's your name, son? Come on in.
我给你倒杯饮料好吗？ Can I fix you a drink?
我们有伏特加，杜松子酒，葡萄酒。嗯，我想…… We have vodka, gin, wine. Erm, I think...
还是你想喝一杯？ Or would you prefer a shot?
事实上，我想我要走了。 Actually, I think I'm gonna go.
不。不,等等。等等，等等，等等。 No. No, wait. Wait, wait, wait.
留下来。请。 Stay. Please.
你没告诉我这是集体活动。我不那么做。 You didn't tell me it was a group thing. I don't do that.
为什么不呢? Why not?
请留下来。 Please, stay.
我会让你不虚此行的 I'll make it worth your while
如果你担心的是这个。 if that's what you're worried about.
这是晚了。 It's late.
我们会玩得很开心。我保证。 We'll have fun. I promise.
你不想要？ You didn't want it?
你在你的里面放了更多。 You put more in yours.
好吧。我看不太清楚。之后，你慢慢地喝。 Okay. I don't see well. And after, you drink slowly.
所以erm…今晚你从哪里来？ So erm... where did you come from tonight?
刚从家里来。家在哪里？ Just from home. And where's home?
嗯…东方。 Erm... East.
请给我电话。你走的时候就能拿回来。 Phone, please. You get it back when you go.
我们聚会的时候把它们收起来。房子的规则。 We put them away when we party. House rules.
这样大家就可以放松了。这是为了保护我们所有人。 Just so everyone can relax. It's to protect us all.
是的，你知道的。从任何鬼鬼祟祟的色情业者那里。 Yeah, you know. From any sneaky pornographers.
或者更确切地说，是因为我们可爱的主人 Or rather, it's because our lovely hosts here
我可不想和你这种人在一起，雅格布。 wouldn't want to be pictured with the likes of you, Jacopo.
去你妈的。-嘿，哇。小心。来吧。 Fuck you. - Hey, whoa. Careful. Come on.
如果你想关掉它。 Turn it off if you want.
我要把它放在抽屉里。 I'm just going to put it in a drawer.
好吧。 Okay.
想要一些吗? Want some?
这是什么？ What is it?
Mephedrone。 Mephedrone.
你注意到区别了吗？ Do you notice the difference?
我没说。 I didn't say.
另一个还不错，但这个要快得多。 The other one wasn't bad, but this stuff is a lot speedier.
你还好吗？你没有参加会议。 Are you okay? You weren't in the meeting.
我需要尽快得到你的稿子，还有你要问Bret的问题。 I need your piece ASAP and your questions for Bret.
你今天不来了吗？ Are you not coming in at all today?
收到留言请回我电话。 Give me a call when you get this, please.
告诉我们，你今晚从哪里来？ So tell us, where did you come from tonight?
操他。操他。 Fuck him. Fuck him.
喜欢吗，卡洛？ Like it, Carlo?
哦,他妈的。-很好，对吧？是的。 Oh fuck. - It's good, right? Yeah.
我觉得他们很享受。 I think they enjoyed that.
你是新手，对吧？ You're new to this, aren't you?
那你有没有… So have you erm...
以前来过这里吗？ been here before?
是的，我去过几次。 Yeah, I've been over a couple of times.
他们喜欢一个月折腾一次。 They like to get trashed once a month or so.
他们是谁？ Who are they?
比如，他们是做什么的？ Like, what do they do?
两个律师。所以才有了手机。 Both lawyers. Hence the phones.
我不知道是哪种，但是…… I have no idea what kind, but...
他们可以慷慨大方。 they can afford to be generous.
他在哪里找到你的？ Where did he find you?
嗯… Erm...
梦幻……人。 Dreamy... guys.
我知道他为什么选你了。 Yeah, I can see why he picked you.
我们应该合作，你知道的。 We should collab, you know.
OnlyFans。 OnlyFans.
我想我不想成为那个…公众。 I don't think I want to be that erm... public.
不过你会做得很好的。 You'd do so well though.
你这么认为吗？——嗯。 Do you think so? - Hm.
是的。 Yeah.
你有一种健康的邻家男孩的感觉。 You've got that wholesome boy-next-door thing going on.
但下面都是污秽。 But it's all filth underneath.
你为什么不考虑一下呢？嗯? Why don't you think about it. Hm?
我现在发现了什么有趣的东西 What I find interesting now
这是一种反性行为吗 is that there is this kind of anti-sex thing going on
在某种程度上……在美国的很多评论中， in a way in terms of... In a lot of the reviews in America,
他们抱怨书里有太多的性描写， they complained about how much sex was in the book,
这让我很惊讶，因为我不认为有那么多。 which surprised me because I don't think it was that much.
早....。-嗨。 Morning. - Hey.
Max。很高兴见到你。-嗨。 Max. Good to see you. - Hi.
五分钟后开会。-是的。谢谢。 Meeting's in five. - Yeah. Thanks.
Amna在做Rachel Cusk的采访， Amna is doing the Rachel Cusk interview,
法泽尔举办了设计双年展。马克斯…… Fazel has the Design Biennale. Max...
嗯…我有Bret。计划有变。 Erm... I've got Bret. Change of plans.
你今天要去Ecotec参加应用发布会。 You're going to Ecotec today for the app launch.
嗯…但我要采访Bret。 Erm... But I'm interviewing Bret.
不。詹姆斯在照顾Bret。 No. James is taking care of Bret.
但是嗯…麦克斯就像个专家。 But erm... Max is like an expert.
他周五来这里参加了LLF会议 He was here on Friday for the LLF meeting
并为此做好了准备。 and has prepared for it.
但那不是我们的区域。 But that's not even our section.
是什么让这本杂志得以存在？ What makes the existence of this magazine possible?
你认为文学能自食其力吗？ Do you think literature pays for itself?
还有，请快点完成对斯理曼尼的评论。 And please hurry up with the Slimani review.
现在应该已经升上去了。 It should've gone up by now.
我知道，这很糟糕。 I know, it's fucked up.
但是…你星期五为什么没来？ But... why didn't you come in on Friday?
我告诉过你。 I told you.
我和一个人勾搭上了，然后在他们家睡着了。 I hooked up with someone and I fell asleep at their place.
你知道吗，我真的可以在我的网页上得到你的反馈。 You know, I really could've used your feedback on my pages.
妈的,嗯… Fuck, erm...
我很抱歉。我今晚会看的。我保证。 I'm sorry. I'll look at them tonight. I promise.
我已经提交了。截止日期是昨天？ I've already submitted it. The deadline was yesterday?
直观的界面, ...intuitive interface,
你要做的就是向左或向右滑动， so all you'll be doing is swiping left or right,
我相信你们都能做到。 which I'm sure you can all manage.
这一次最好的部分是，你甚至不需要 This time the best part is that you won't even have
带一个笨拙的陌生人出去喝一杯。 to take an awkward stranger out for a drink.
现在，我们的软件中有斑点 Now, we have spots in our software
在那里你可以分享想法，进行头脑风暴， where you can share ideas, brainstorm,
为你的研发制造停车场…… make parking lots for your research and development...
这是《华尔街杂志》的麦克斯。 So this is Max from Wall Magazine.
Joan，我们的首席开发人员。 Joan, our Head Developer.
很高兴见到你，麦克斯。-嗨。 Pleasure to meet you, Max. - Hi.
我们坐在这里好吗？ Shall we sit down over here?
是的。 Yeah.
我们从哪里开始呢？ Where do we begin?
有人向你演示过这个应用程序是如何工作的吗？ Has anybody demonstrated to you how the app works?
是的，他们有。 Yeah, they have.
我可以告诉你更多的开发过程 I can tell you more about the development process
也不知道我们的用户界面和设计是怎么来的。 or how we came about our user interface, or the design.
事实上，我认为…… Actually, I think erm...
我的钱够了。 I've got enough.
哦，不，你真的应该和琼谈谈这件事。 Oh no, you really want to talk to Joan about this.
她几乎是这个项目的带头人。 She pretty much spearheaded the project.
没有必要。表示 It's not necessary. The presentation
涵盖了一切，所以…我得走了。 covered everything, so... I'm gonna have to be off.
非常感谢。 Thank you so much.
不。我很抱歉。我们还没完呢。 No. I'm sorry. We're not done here.
琼需要参与到这件作品中来。 Joan needs to be a part of this piece.
你找到路了吗？ Did you find your way here okay?
是的。没有问题。 Yeah. No problems.
我知道这在局里可能不太直观。 I know it can be a little unintuitive from the station.
你说你住在哪里来着？ Where did you say you live again?
在哈克尼。-哦，对，是的。 In Hackney. - Oh right, yes.
哈克尼真的出现了，不是吗？ Hackney has really come up, hasn't it?
就在不久之前，没人想靠近它， It wasn't that long ago no one wanted to go near it,
更不用说住在那里了。 let alone live there.
我记得那时只有帮派和毒贩还有… I remember when it was just gangs and drug dealers and...
要喝点什么吗？ Can I offer you a drink?
我开了一些原始人。 I've opened some Primitivo.
我很感激能在那时拥有自己的事业。 I'm grateful to have had my career when I did.
七十年代出道绝对是件乐事。 Starting out in the seventies was an absolute joy.
高等教育是免费的。 Tertiary education was free.
追求知识本身就被视为一种目的。 The pursuit of knowledge was regarded as an end in itself.
现在跟博士后们说， Speaking with post-doctorates now,
情况似乎很糟糕。 the situation seems just dire.
我不知道他们是怎么应付的。 I don't know how they manage to cope with all that...
不确定性和债务。 uncertainty and debt.
你嗯…你在学习，不是吗？ You're erm... studying, aren't you?
我记得你的资料里提到过。 I thought your profile mentioned that.
是的,嗯…… Yeah, erm...
我正在攻读硕士学位。-哦，什么？ I'm doing my masters. - Oh, what in?
法国文学。 French literature.
这是美妙的。 That's wonderful.
我以前讲授比较文学。 I used to lecture in comparative literature.
你知道你的论文要写什么了吗？ Do you know what you're going to do your thesis on yet?
是的。我想是的，嗯…… Yeah. I think so, erm...
但我不想让你厌烦。-哦，你不能。 But I don't want to bore you. - Oh, you couldn't.
我就是为那些东西而活。 I live for that stuff.
我还没有…… I haven't...
抱歉，我们能先继续聊吗？ Sorry, could we just keep talking for now?
你确定吗？ Are you sure?
请。 Please.
我只是想先更了解你。不用着急。 I just want to get to know you better first. There's no rush.
我希望你们都和我一样兴奋和荣幸 I hope you're all as excited and as honored as I am
欢迎今晚来到舞台上 to welcome onto the stage tonight
他的作品跨度长达十年 an author whose decade-spanning body of work
不仅留下了不可磨灭的印记吗 has not only left an indelible mark
在20世纪和21世纪的文学中， on 20th and 21st century literature,
但我也可以说 but someone who I can also say
对方式产生了深远的影响 has had a profound influence on the way
我们这一代的许多作家，包括我自己， many writers of my generation, myself included,
来看待作家在社会中的角色。 have come to view the role of the writer in society.
请和我一起欢迎大家上台 Please join me in welcoming onto the stage
龚古尔奖和布克奖的得主， the winner of both the Goncourt and Booker Prizes,
《黑水》的作者 the author of the devastatingly brilliant Blackwater,
她的第18部小说《阿丽娜·卡萨罗》 her 18th novel, Alina Casaro.
我的意思是, I mean,
你真他妈不可思议。 you were fucking incredible.
那个关于影响的问题… That question about the influence of erm...
哦，不不不。我不想和她说话。 Oh no no no. I don't want to talk to her.
在她拒绝了我的手稿之后。如此尴尬。 After she rejected my manuscript. So embarrassing.
马克斯,嗨。-嗨。 Max, hi. - Hi.
嗯…Amna，是吗？——是的。 Erm... Amna, is it? - Yes.
你的问答做得很好。-哦，谢谢。 Brilliant job on that Q&A. - Oh, thank you.
你还真是深入挖掘了。 You really managed to drill down deeply.
谢谢。 Thanks.
我得问问。你是怎么处理的？ I've got to ask. How did you randle that?
哦……我为《华尔街》采访了她 Oh well... I interviewed her for Wall
然后她让我来这里采访她。 and then she asked me to interview her here.
麦克斯，我在室内安排了几个人 Max, I've got a couple of people indoor
我很想让你见见 that I'd really love you to meet,
如果你能给他一点时间。 if you can spare him for a moment.
是的，请随便。——好的。 Yes, be my guest. - Okay.
嗯…Amna，你为什么不来办公室一趟。 Erm... Amna, why don't you come by the office.
我们可以聊聊你正在做的事。 We can have a chat about whatever you're working on.
是的。那太好了。 Yeah. That'd be great.
我一直在寻找像你这样的新鲜声音。 I'm always on the lookout for a fresh voice like yours.
辉煌。 Brilliant.
准备好了吗? Ready?
告诉你一下， Just so you're aware,
乔伊是Polari奖的评委。好吧? Joy is on the panel for the Polari Prize. Okay?
嗨。请允许我介绍马克斯。 Hi. Can I please introduce Max.
他是我们的新发现之一。 He's one of our latest discoveries.
伊恩。-嗨。 Ian. - Hi.
迷住了。-很高兴认识你。 Charmed. - Nice to meet you.
伊恩经营着《伦敦评论》。——哇。 Ian runs the London Review. - Wow.
迪翁太慷慨了。 Dionne is being far too generous.
我现在只是监督它。 I merely oversee it nowadays.
我把日常事务交给…… I leave the daily business to...
嗯，对年轻一代来说。 well, to the younger generation.
乔伊在艺术委员会工作。- - - - - -你好。 Joy is with the Arts Council. - Hello.
很高兴认识你。-很高兴认识你。 Lovely to meet you. - Nice to meet you.
那你在忙什么呢？-有几件事 So, what are you working on? - A couple of things
目前为止。嗯… at the moment. Erm...
我们真的很自豪能够出版 We're really proud to be publishing
马克斯的一些短篇小说。 some of Max's short stories.
几个月前他已经在格兰塔有过一次了 He's already had one in Granta a few months ago
还有一人获得了布里波特奖的提名。 and another has been nominated for the Bridport.
这是美妙的。-太好了。做得很好。 That's wonderful. - Oh, good. Well done.
祝贺你。-谢谢。 Congratulations. - Thank you.
目前，他正在努力创作一部引人入胜的小说 And currently, he's working hard on quite a tantalizing novel
我们希望明年出版，一切顺利。 that we're hoping to publish next year, all going well.
毫无疑问，我们很快就会报道你的。 No doubt we'll be covering you on our pages soon.
当然是雷达上的。 Certainly one for the radar.
你看起来太年轻了，不像是要出版了。 You look awfully young to be getting published.
你多大了，麦克斯？-我二十五岁。 How old are you, Max? - I am twenty-five.
哦……嗯,完美。 Oh... Well, perfection.
那么，你的小说是关于什么的？ So, what's your novel about?
是关于一个学生，他…… Erm, it's about a student who erm...
谁…… who...
是关于数字时代的性工作。 It's about sex work in the digital age.
好,好。 Good, good.
麦克斯把它当作另一份工作来探索 Max is exploring it as perhaps just another job
在零工经济的许多其他工作中。 amongst many other jobs in the gig economy.
嗯…我…我刚想起来我落下了点东西。 Erm... I... I just remembered that I've left something.
我很抱歉，我得先失陪一下，呃…… I'm so sorry, I will have to excuse myself, erm...
我很抱歉。谢谢。 I'm sorry. Thanks.
…它不是很蓬松。她能做什么？ ...it's not very fluffy. What can she do?
这就是艾米丽所谓的困境，是吗？ So that's Emily's idea of a dilemma, is it?
她的生活很忙 She's got a busy life,
她想为她的聚会做一个漂亮的蛋糕。 she wants to make a nice cake for her party.
所以在早上，她会打扰别人 So in the morning, she's bothering people
还有那个海绵蛋糕。 with that sponge cake.
哦，你知道的……这是真的。 Oh, you know... It is true.
嗨,妈妈。 Hi, Mum.
是的，我很好。 Yeah, I'm good.
你好吗？ How are you?
你已经上床睡觉了？ You're already in bed?
那好吧。是的，很好。我可以明天打电话。 All right then. Yeah, that's fine. I can call tomorrow.
不。没什么事。别担心。 No. Nothing's the matter. Don't worry.
是的。好吧。 Yeah. Okay.
晚安，各位。 Good night.
爱你。 Love you.
是啊，有一种反乌托邦的感觉。 Yeah, it had almost a dystopian vibe to it.
是的。 Yeah.
我认为这很诚实。谢谢你，乔尔。 I thought it was very honest. So thank you for that, Joel.
好了，我们来看看麦克斯。 Okay, let's move on to Max.
你今天给我们带来了什么？ What do you have for us today?
尽管似乎没有人能做到 "Although no one seemed to have been able
为了探测到通向它的信号， to detect the signs leading up to it,
后来他们都陷入了悲痛的忧虑之中 they were all afterwards in mournful apprehension
他们去过那里。 that they had been there.
无处不在。就像一种没有气味的有毒气体。 Everywhere. Undetected like an odorless, poisonous gas.
早上是例行公事。 The morning had been routine.
另一个相同的链接 Another identical link
在邓巴一连串银色的夏日里。” in a chain of silvery summer days at Dunbar."
好了，伙计们。欢呼。 There we go, guys. Cheers.
我喜欢你的诗。 I liked your poem.
是吗? Yeah?
是的。 Yeah.
它很好地捕捉到了城市的孤独感。 It captured that sense of urban loneliness really well.
做到了……和你有共鸣吗？ Did it... resonate with you?
我怀疑这种感觉对任何人来说都是完全陌生的 I doubt those feelings are entirely foreign to anyone
在伦敦单身的人。 who's single in London.
发生了什么？ What happened to...
他叫什么名字？塞巴斯蒂安。 what was his name? Sebastian.
我不知道。我只是… I don't know. I just...
我觉得这个故事没什么新意了。 I felt like that story wasn't going anywhere new.
我不知道接下来要去哪里。 I didn't know where to take it next.
我想听更多。 I wanted to hear more.
你喜欢吗？-是的。是的，我喜欢。 Do you like that? - Yeah. Yeah, I do.
你喜欢我的鸡巴吗？-是啊，操我。 Do you like my cock? - Yeah, fuck me.
停止。 Stop.
请停止。停下来,停下来。慢下来。 Please, stop. Stop, stop. Slow down.
对不起。没关系。 Sorry. That's okay.
没关系的。别担心。 It's all right. Don't worry.
这不是色情片。 It's not a porno.
你和爸爸抽时间看那个节目了吗 Did you and Dad get round to watching that show
我告诉你的？ I told you about?
我们开始看了，但十五分钟后我不得不把它关掉。 We started it, but I had to turn it off after fifteen minutes.
我不知道为什么现在每个节目都要这样。 I don't know why every program nowadays has to be like that.
太俗了。 Just so vulgar.
哦,妈妈。你应该坚持下去。 Oh, Mum. You should have stuck with it.
你有要洗的东西吗？ Do you have anything for the wash?
不。 No.
我读了你的故事。 I read your story.
我认为它非常漂亮。 I thought it was very beautiful.
你说的是哪一个？ Which one do you mean?
<我> 他的气息。杂志上的那个。 His Breath. The one in the magazine.
你是怎么…… How did you...
你知道，我确实知道如何使用互联网。 I do know how to use the internet, you know.
我觉得很感人。 I thought it was very touching.
但是… But...
这让我很担心你。 It made me worry about you.
但这是虚构的，妈妈。 But it's fiction, Mum.
但它总得有出处，不是吗？ But it has to come from somewhere, doesn't it?
我只是担心你 I just worry about you
一个人在伦敦 being by yourself in London.
我有朋友。 I have friends.
自从……之后还有其他人吗？ Has there been anybody else since...
你从来不谈这些事。 You never talk about these things.
不，因为我现在得专心工作了。 No, because I have honestly got to focus on work right now.
我应该很快就能在杂志社工作了。 I should be staff at the magazine soon.
他们有了一个新职位。 They've got a new position coming up.
你一定要写这些私人的事情吗？ Do you have to write about such personal things?
你确实有权保留一些东西 You do have the right to keep some things
只为你自己，你知道的。 just for yourself, you know.
嘿。 Hey.
我已经把最新编辑的版本发给你了。 I've sent you the version with the latest edits.
我们已经选好了图片，它们现在在Proof中。 We've picked the images and they're in Proof now.
接下来我将从胡斯曼的评论开始。 I'll get started with the Husmann review next.
麦克斯，请进。 Max, come in.
我有些不太好的消息要告诉你。 I've got some not great news for you.
我们的编辑委员会，现在我们有了一个新的专职编辑… Our editorial board, now that we have a new staff editor...
你是说詹姆斯吗？ You mean James.
他们希望把重点从自由职业者身上转移开。 They are looking to shift their emphasis away from freelancers.
不幸的是，我们下个月要讨论的部分 So unfortunately, the pieces that we discussed for next month
都将在公司内部完成。——正确的。 are going to be done in-house. - Right.
有什么我能做的吗？ So is there anything for me to do?
恐怕不行。 I'm afraid not.
抱歉，我的文章不是上个月阅读量最高的文章之一 Sorry, but wasn't my piece one of the most read last month
再往前一个月呢？ and the month before that too?
麦克斯，我觉得我们的杂志 Max, I get the feeling that our magazine
这不是你最近最关心的事， hasn't exactly been your top priority of late,
所以我不想让我们留下你 so I wouldn't want us to keep you
远离你想做的事。 away from whatever it is you'd rather be doing.
很抱歉我们没能成功。 I'm sorry this didn't work out.
我感觉她受不了 I get the sense that she can't handle
如果队里有其他有前途的人， having anyone with any other prospects on the team,
就像所有人一样，除了破烂的收藏 like anyone with anything other than a shitty collection
诗的名字。 of poetry to their name.
你可以问问史蒂文《魅力》杂志有没有货。 You could ask Steven if they've got anything at Glamour.
我知道这不是格兰塔，但是…这是钱。 I know it's not exactly Granta, but... it's money.
你真觉得我的出版商会接受吗？ Do you really think that will go down well with my publisher?
魅力并不完全相容 Glamour isn't exactly compatible
作为一个严肃的作家，是吗？ with being a serious writer, is it?
嗯……是的。 Hm... Yeah.
你知道吗，你应该… You know what, you should erm...
我觉得你应该用笔名。 I think you should use a pseudonym.
没人需要知道，毕竟这是马克斯·威廉姆森的作品。 No one need know after all it's by the Max Williamson.
反正我得专心写小说了。 I've got to focus on my fiction anyway.
靠什么生活？ And live on what?
又不是说你有预支什么的。 It's not like you've got an advance or anything.
你今晚看了什么？ What did you see tonight?
这是爱德华·阿尔比的《山羊》。 It was The Goat by Edward Albee.
噢,是的。-你熟悉吗？ Oh yeah. - Are you familiar?
不。我已经…… No. I've...
还没机会看呢。 not had a chance to see it yet.
不过我很想去。 I'd like to though.
但我还是忍不住想，尽管它很有创意 But I couldn't help thinking that for all its ingenuity
和希腊悲剧的精彩典故， and brilliant allusion to Greek tragedy,
那出戏没有打动我。 the play just didn't move me.
而对于田纳西·威廉姆斯，嗯…… Whereas with Tennessee Williams, well...
上周我又看了另一部《玻璃动物园》。 I saw yet another production of The Glass Menagerie last week.
看到他们几乎背靠背的工作 Seeing their work almost back-to-back
迫使你去比较。 forces you to compare.
这是… Is this a...
Schiele吗? a Schiele?
这是当年非常幸运的发现。 A very lucky find back in the day.
我喜欢你所有的照片。 I like all of your pictures.
这些年来我设法收集了一些东西。 I've managed to collect a few things over the years.
但实际上，这是有钱人的爱好。 But really, it's a wealthier person's hobby.
不,不。你……你有一个漂亮的家。 No, no. You... You've got a beautiful home.
对一个人来说有点大，但是…… It's a bit big for one, but...
我决定留下来了。 I've decided to stay.
那么，你也写吧。 So, you write as well then.
还是你像我一样是个狂热爱好者？ Or are you more of an aficionado, like me?
我学习。我告诉过你。 I'm studying. I told you that.
我都不知道还能不能再见到你。 I wasn't sure I'd see you again.
我是说，那天晚上我自己也很震惊。 I mean, I had quite a shock myself that night.
我已经离线一段时间了。-我注意到了。 I have been offline for a bit. - I noticed.
我希望不是为我的缘故。 I hope not on my account.
不用说，这是我们之间的事。 And it goes without saying that this is between us.
任何东西都不能离开这个房间，这个房子。所以不用担心。 Nothing leaves this room, this house. So don't worry.
说实话，嗯…… To be honest erm...
再次收到你的来信我有点惊讶。 I was a little surprised to hear from you again.
我在这里的那天晚上…我很抱歉…… That night that I was here, erm... I'm sorry...
不。没必要道歉。 No. No need to apologies.
我自己也很紧张。太紧张了。 I was on edge myself. Too tense.
我还是个新手 I'm pretty much of a novice
以防你没意识到。 in case you didn't realize.
所以… So...
你写的是诗歌还是散文？ Is it poetry or prose you write?
我偶尔还会编辑教科书。 I still do occasional work editing textbooks.
我还是会被邀请参加这些活动。 I still get invited to these things.
你知道，我只是出于真正的兴趣才问的。 I'm only asking out of genuine interest, you know.
我确实写作。 I do write.
主要是短篇小说。 Mainly just short stories.
有什么我能读懂的吗？ Anything I can read?
别这么快。 Not so fast.
我得先多了解你一点。 I need to get to know you a little better first.
讲得好!。 Touché.
你让我想起一个人。三十年前，他像你这么大的时候。 You remind me of someone. Thirty years ago, when he was your age.
是你笑的方式。 It's something about the way you laugh.
你声音的男高音。 The tenor of your voice.
把下巴抬起来一点。 Chin up a little bit.
好吧。不，没那么性感。体贴，不性感。 Okay. No, not so sultry. Thoughtful, not sexy.
你写的是一个严肃的话题，对吧？ It's a serious subject you're writing about, yeah?
是的。 Yeah.
是的。是的，就是这样。 Yeah. Yeah, that's it.
哦，太棒了。我喜欢这个。 Oh, that's stunning. I love this one.
我们能再近距离拍几张吗？ Can we get a couple more very close up?
是的,当然。 Yeah, sure.
是的。麦克斯，你的Insta是什么？ Yeah. Max, what's your Insta?
嗯…@maximes。 Erm... It's @maximes.
但我并没有很多粉丝，所以… But I've not really got many followers or anything, so...
我们要解决这个问题。 We're going to fix that.
我们会在Instagram上做一个大专题。 We'll do a big feature on our Instagram.
一旦这个出来， Once this comes out,
你的照片会出现在每个人的主页上。 your face is gonna be on the top of everyone's feed.
Nuits Fauves。 Les Nuits Fauves.
这当然在我的研讨会上引发了争论。 Oh, that certainly sparked debate in my seminars.
我知道有些人认为他不道德。 I know some people view him as immoral.
或自私。 Or selfish.
讨喜。 Unlikable.
但我认为这是对一种……欢乐。 But I think it's a beautiful account of a kind of... joy.
即使面对死亡 Even in the face of death,
反对艾滋病和恐同的暴政…… against the tyranny of Aids and homophobia...
我认为他拒绝放弃生活是一种伟大的美。 I think there's great beauty in his refusal to give up on life.
他一直渴望品尝所有的东西，直到…… His continued desire to taste everything until the...
结尾。 very end.
怎么啦？ What?
我能问你一个问题吗？ Can I ask you a question?
你为什么要这么做？ Why is it that you do this?
我想那个网站上不会有很多男孩吧 I don't imagine there are many boys on that website
在《格兰塔》上发表的作品或获得文学奖提名的作品。 who are published in Granta or nominated for literary prizes.
你是说我不该来这里吗？ Are you saying that I shouldn't be here?
不。不，一点也不。 No. No, not at all.
你知道，写小说赚不了多少钱。 You know, there's not much money in writing fiction.
或者写句号。 Or writing full stop.
不，我想没有。 No, I don't imagine there is.
但你真的只是为了钱吗？ But is it really just about the money for you?
嗯… Erm...
不。 No.
事情没那么简单。 It's not that simple.
我们是九十年代初在加州认识的。 We met in California in the early nineties.
我还是没出去。 I still wasn't out.
我唯一一次鼓起勇气去见人 The only time I plucked up courage to meet anyone
是在出差。 was on work trips.
由于艾滋病，这也变成了一个可怕的行业。 That too became a frightening business because of Aids.
是的，当然。 Yeah, of course.
你们是怎么认识的？ So how did you meet?
我下午没有参加会议 I had the afternoon off from my conference
去盖蒂别墅度假了。 and had gone to spend it at the Getty Villa.
这真是一个奇妙的地方。 It really is a marvellous place.
如果你没去过，你应该去。 You should go if you haven't been.
我在看这个雕塑，胜利的青年， I was looking at this sculpture, the Victorious Youth,
沉浸在钦佩之中， lost in admiration,
突然我听到， when suddenly I heard,
“真可爱，不是吗？” "Cute ass, isn't it?"
转身, Turning round,
我第一次见到大卫。 I saw David for the first time.
微笑着他那厚颜无耻的微笑。很帅。 Smiling his cheeky smile. So handsome.
我们开始交谈， We got into conversation,
去吃午饭，喝酒， went for lunch, had drinks,
在我的旅馆度过了难忘的一夜。 an unforgettable night in my hotel.
三天后， Three days later,
我飞回伦敦，大卫和我一起回来， I flew back to London and David came with me,
再也没有离开过。 and never left.
直到29年后的某一天， Until one day, twenty-nine years later,
他被带走了。 he was taken away.
下个月就满三年了。 It'll be three years next month.
中风。 A stroke.
他突然走了，就像突然出现一样。 He went as suddenly as he had appeared.
哦……我们的时代快结束了。 Oh... Our time is almost over.
我想留下来。 I'd like to stay.
嗯，你知道我很乐意，但我真的负担不起…… Well, you know I'd love that, but really I can't afford...
不是他。 Not him.
我。 Me.
我看过《旗帜晚报》上的证据。 I've seen the proofs from the Evening Standard piece.
拍得真好，你不觉得吗？ Really good shots, don't you think?
他们好了。我去看看能不能找到一个做防尘衣的。 They're great. I'll see if we can get one for the dust jacket.
面试也很好。 The interview's good too.
我喜欢你说的那句话……是什么？ I love that thing you said... What was it?
“我用文字创造出我在这个世界上的存在。他们是……” "I carve out my existence in the world using words. They are..."
它们是我身后留下的脚印。 They are the footsteps I leave in my wake.
美丽。-是的。 Beautiful. - Yeah.
是不是太抒情了？ It's not too lyrical?
不，这正是我们需要的。 No, it's just what we needed.
但愿它能得到应有的评价。 Fingers crossed it gets the review it deserves.
应该没问题。拉里正在做。 Shouldn't be a problem. Larry is doing it.
我想他会很欣赏你的风格的。 I think he'll have a real appreciation for your style.
你看过草稿了吗？——是的。 So have you read the draft? - Yes.
本也看过了。 Ben's had a look at it too.
我要实话实说，因为 I'm gonna be honest because
我们想尽快把它弄出来 we want to get this out as soon as possible
在你还清醒的时候看完短篇小说 after the short stories while you're still fresh
在每个人的心中。 in everybody's mind.
这嗯…全新的线索… This erm... whole new thread with...
哦，这个角色叫什么名字？那位老先生。 Oh, what's the character's name? The older gentleman.
乔纳森。 Jonathan.
我不确定。 I'm not sure about it.
但这是心脏…-你不觉得… But it's the heart... - Don't you think it's...
在某种程度上太浪漫了？ somehow too romantic in a way?
塞巴斯蒂安，他一直沉迷于性，直到现在， Is Sebastian, who has been so consumed by sex until now,
真的要和这家伙一起变成哈罗德和莫德吗？ really about to become all Harold and Maude with this guy?
我是想表明他已经超越了那个首字母， I'm trying to show that he's moved beyond that initial,
更肤浅的兴趣 more superficial interest
在性工作中……更深刻地体会到它的意义。 in sex work to... to this deeper appreciation of its meaning.
我知道你想这么做。 I can see that's what you're trying to do.
但你现在在这段感情上花了那么多时间， But you spend so much time now on this one relationship,
我担心它正在失去焦点。 I fear it's losing focus.
别误会我。一开始很精彩。 Don't get me wrong. It started off brilliantly.
非常令人兴奋的事情。 Really exciting stuff.
我希望你能继续这样下去。 I'd just like you to continue in that vein.
只是，我真的觉得我发现了… It's just, I really feel like I'm discovering...
这里有更深层次的东西。 something deeper here.
这些应召女郎和她们的客户之间的交流。 These exchanges between escorts and their clients.
它们真的很重要， They are really important,
连接几代男同性恋者 connecting generations of gay men
这可能与彼此没有太大关系 that might have not had much to do with each other
因此他们在传播酷儿的历史和文化…… and thus they're transmitting queer history and culture and...
这就是我想说的。 That's something I want to talk about.
但这不是我们一开始讨论的，对吧？ But that's not what we discussed originally, is it?
你改变了你的建议。 You've veered from your proposal.
当代性工作的真实写照。 An authentic portrait of contemporary sex work.
现实生活是怎样的…… The reality of what life is like...
但这是基于现实的。这都是基于研究。 But it's grounded in reality. It's all based on research.
来自我的采访。 From my interviews.
我很抱歉。我只是觉得我们的观众不会喜欢。 I'm sorry. I just don't think our audiences will like it.
你得给它加点料，麦克斯。 You need to bring something more to it, Max.
想办法提高赌注。-我不想这样 Find a way to raise the stakes. - I don't want it to be
又一个悲惨的性工作者的故事。一点也不。 just another tragic sex worker's story. Not at all.
没有人要求你这么做。 And nobody is asking you to do that.
听着，我们已经知道你精通短篇小说了。 Look, we already know that you've mastered the short story.
但这是一部小说。你必须记住这一点。 But this is a novel. You have to remember that.
这是一个完全不同的野兽。 It is a different beast entirely.
就目前情况而言，恐怕行不通。 As it is, I'm afraid it's not working.
这让我害怕。我不知道…… It scares me. I don't know...
好像我有一颗冷酷的心。 It's as if I have a cold heart.
你从来没有爱上过一个男孩吗？ Have you never fallen in love with a boy?
是的。 Yes.
那你为什么不和他在一起？ Then why aren't you with him?
我不知道。是我的错。我不知道自己在做什么。 I don't know. It's my fault. I didn't know what I was doing.
经常想起他吗？ Think of him a lot?
有时。我不想谈这个。 Sometimes. I don't want to talk about it.
如果我是你，我会听人民的 If I were you, I'd listen to the people
谁做过100次了 who've done this 100 times before
给你这个机会。 and are giving you this opportunity.
是啊，但我觉得她根本不懂。 Yeah, but I don't think that she actually gets it.
他们被完全不同的方面所吸引， They're drawn to totally different aspects,
这个更肤浅的版本。 to this more superficial version.
当然，但这真的不重要 Sure, but it really doesn't matter
你的版本太棒了 how amazing your version is
如果没人看的话。 if no one gets to read it.
等你准备好了就是28磅。 That'll be 28 pounds when you're ready.
对不起。 Sorry.
谢谢。 Thanks.
有些东西我觉得我们应该看看， There's something I really think we should see,
嗯… erm...
下个星期就要开始了。 The week after next it's coming on.
我认为…… I think it...
你夹克的内口袋。 The inside pocket of your jacket.
下周四再见。 I'll see you again next Thursday.
下周，嗯…… Next week erm...
可能有点棘手。 may be a bit tricky.
我现在有很多写作工作要做，所以… I've got a lot of work on at the moment with the writing, so...
当然可以。 Of course.
不过我会让你知道的。 But I'll let you know though.
只要合适。 Whenever it suits.
欢迎乘坐10:45的欧洲之星列车 Welcome aboard the 10:45 Eurostar
到布鲁塞尔米迪。 to Brussels Midi.
餐厅酒吧位于4车厢。 The restaurant-bar is located in carriage 4.
我们会到达目的地的 We will arrive at our destination
下午1点45分。 at 1:45 p.m.
祝您旅途愉快。 We wish you a pleasant journey.
很高兴见到你。 It's really good to see you.
啊，拉森先生。很高兴再次见到你。 Ah, Mr Larson. Nice to see you again.
请跟我来。 Just follow me, please.
你好吗？-很好。谢谢你！ How are you? - Very good. Thank you.
所以他们都认识你。 So they all know you here.
是的。 Yeah.
我每次进城都喜欢来这里。 I like to come here whenever I'm in town.
是的，我喜欢他们的食物。 Yeah, I love their food.
虽然我似乎总是吃同样的饭。是的。 Though I always seem to have the same meal. Yeah.
但从来都不是同一家公司。 But never the same company.
不,嗯…… No, erm...
嗯… Well...
如果我找到我喜欢的东西， If I find something I like,
我想再来一次。 I want to have it again.
你的家人这个周末要做什么？ So what are your family doing this weekend?
只是… Just...
我想是在作伴吧。 keeping themselves company, I suppose.
他们去过布鲁塞尔吗？ Have they ever been to Brussels?
嗯… Well...
我觉得他们不是很感兴趣。 I don't think they're very interested.
你想再来点酒吗？ Would you like some more wine?
是的,请。 Yes, please.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
再来一瓶？ Perhaps another bottle?
嗯… Erm...
为什么不。 Why not.
对不起，我不太舒服。 Sorry, I'm not feeling too well.
我想我是喝多了。 I think I had a bit too much to drink.
那就去喝点水。 Go get some water then.
我累了。 I'm tired.
没关系。没关系。 It's okay. It's okay.
我们能等到早上吗？ Can we just wait until morning?
需要我提醒你谁付钱吗？ Do I have to remind you who is paying for this?
你能不能至少拿个避孕套？ Can you at least get a condom?
请。 Please.
马克斯? Max?
麦克斯! Max!
我们没有一整天的时间。 We haven't got all day.
你能不能至少拿个避孕套？ Can you at least get a condom?
这是什么鬼东西？ What the fuck is this?
哦,他妈的。嗯… Oh fuck. Erm...
在那一刻，塞巴斯蒂安意识到 "And in that moment, Sebastian realised
试图反击 that to try to fight back
会毫无结果，甚至是危险的。” would have been fruitless, or dangerous even."
事情不是这样的！这是什么鬼东西？ That is not what happened! What the fuck is this?
这是给我自己的。没什么。 It's just for myself. It's nothing.
我早该知道的。永远不要相信妓女。 I should have known. Never trust a whore.
对不起。把我的笔记本电脑给我。-出去。 Sorry. Give my laptop. - Get out.
没什么。——请。出去。 It's nothing. - Please. Get out.
把我的笔记本电脑还给我。-滚出去。 Give my laptop back. - Get the fuck out.
我可以用我的笔记本电脑吗？-滚出去。 Can I have my laptop? - Get the fuck out.
给我吧。——现在! Just give it. - Now!
-得到…出去! - Get... out!
把东西给我。-我把你的东西给你 Give me my stuff. - I'll give you your stuff.
——出来。现在。 - Out. Now.
他妈的婊子! Fucking whore!
他妈的。 Fuck.
你拿了我的钱包吗？我需要它。 Do you have my wallet? I need it.
丹尼尔! Daniel!
先生?先生,请。 Sir? Sir, please.
你得停下来。你打扰客人了。 You need to stop. You are disturbing the guests.
我忘带钱包了。-先生，请。 I left my wallet. - Sir, please.
我要你离开。前台可以处理。 I want you to leave. Reception can sort it out.
我要进去… I need to get in...
下午好，拉森先生。很抱歉打扰你。 Good afternoon, Mr Larson. I'm sorry to disturb you.
我前面有个年轻人 I have a young man in front of me
谁想进入你的房间。 who wants access to your room.
他在找他的钱包。他说他叫塞巴斯蒂安。 He's looking for his wallet. He says his name is Sebastian.
你认识他吗？ Do you know him?
没有? No?
不，他在撒谎。——好的。非常感谢。 No, he's lying. - Okay. Thank you very much.
很抱歉打扰你了。谢谢你！再见。 I'm so sorry to have disturbed you. Thank you. Bye.
我也无能为力了。-他是个骗子。 There's nothing more I can do. - He's a liar.
你的同事以前见过我。 Your colleagues have literally seen me here before.
我很抱歉。如果你不订房间 I'm sorry. If you're not booking a room,
我得请你离开了。 I have to ask you to leave.
你在开玩笑吧？这他妈太荒谬了。 Are you kidding? That's fucking ridiculous.
我以前来过这里！-拜托，先生，冷静点 I've been here before! - Please, sir, calm down.
对不起。我什么都做不了。-再打给他。 Sorry. I can't do anything. - Call him again.
我不能那样做。我很抱歉。 I can't do that. I'm sorry.
嗨,妈妈。 Hi, Mum.
<我>你好,马克斯。你为什么不接电话？ Hi, Max. Why are you not picking up?
我一直在试着和你沟通 I've been trying to get through to you.
我刚才在电影院。 I was just in the cinema.
为什么我的拨号音很奇怪？ Why am I getting a strange dialling tone?
你在哪里？ Where are you?
嗯…我在布鲁塞尔，和Amna在一起。 Erm... I'm in Brussels, with Amna.
在布鲁塞尔的<我> ? In Brussels?
抱歉，我没机会告诉你。 Sorry, I didn't get the chance to tell you.
那是在最后一刻。嗯… It was so last minute. Erm...
Amna买了欧洲之星的票，所以…嗯… Amna got a deal on Eurostar tickets, so... erm...
她带我来这里度周末。 She took me here for the weekend.
迟到的生日礼物。 A late birthday present.
她真是太好了。 That was really nice of her.
听着，你爸爸和我打电话只是想说 Listen, your dad and I were just calling to say
我们已经在《旗帜晚报》上读到那篇文章了 that we had read that piece in the Evening Standard.
你表现得非常非常好。 You came across really, really well.
我真为你骄傲，Max I am so proud of you, Max.
是的。 Yeah.
太好了。 That's great.
你说得真好。 You spoke so beautifully.
再见。-再见，亲爱的。 Bye. - Bye, darling.
关闭时间。 Closing time.
走了。我们要关门了。 Get going. We are closing up.
沿着。我们关闭。 Move along. We're closing.
♬你还能坚持多久？♪ ♪ How much longer can you last? ♪
♬把它推到极限再过一分钟就结束了 ♪ Push it to the limit Over in a minute ♪
♬燃烧直到你崩溃 ♪ Burning up until you crash ♪
♬哦，哦 ♪ Oh, oh ♪
♬你还能坚持多久？♪ ♪ How much longer can you last? ♪
♬哦，哦 ♪ Oh, oh ♪
♬燃烧直到你崩溃 ♪ Burning up until you crash ♪
让你汗流浃背 ♪ Make you sweat Dripping down your neck ♪
♬让我们在一起吧，让你挥洒汗水 ♪ Let's get together Gonna make you sweat ♪
♬我的剪影绕着你的头跑 ♪ My silhouette Running round your head ♪
♬让我们在一起吧，让你挥洒汗水 ♪ Let's get together Gonna make you sweat ♪
谢谢你！ Thank you.
谢谢你！-没问题。 Thank you. - No problem.
像你这样的帅哥永远不应该口渴。 A handsome guy like you should never be thirsty.
你是来度假的吗？ Are you here on holiday?
是的。差不多就是这样。 Yes. Something like that.
♬一切都是我的 ♪ Everything was mine [alright] ♪
♬那天晚上我看到你的时候就知道了 ♪ I knew it When I saw you that night ♪
♬我的心，它觉得完整而♬ ♪ My heart, it felt complete and ♪
♬一切都很完美 ♪ Everything was Perfectly aligned [alright] ♪
♬事情就这样发生了 ♪ It happened just like that ♪
想去我家吗？ Want to go to my place?
离这儿不远。 It's not far.
是的。我很乐意。 Yes. I'd like that.
但那是200。 But that'll be 200.
怎么啦？ What?
它是200。 It's 200.
嘿，我是Amna。 Hey, this is Amna.
我现在不能接电话，请留言 I can't pick up now, but please leave a message
我会尽快回复你的谢谢。 and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Thanks.
喂? Hello?
塞巴斯蒂安? Sebastian?
你在吗？ Are you there?
一切都还好吗？ Is everything all right?
我一直很喜欢乔纳森这个名字。 I've always been rather fond of the name Jonathan.
我要告诉我的出版商 I'm going to tell my publisher
我要放弃整个项目 that I'm scrapping the whole project.
他们根本就不喜欢那部分。 They never even liked that section anyway.
你不恨我吗？ Do you not hate me?
因为那样利用你？ For using you like that?
不，我不知道。 No, I don't.
你需要继续，完成它。 You need to carry on and finish it.
我恨你的是你没有发表它。 What I would hate you for is not publishing it.
和… And...
如果我能帮上什么忙，但愿不会 if I can help in any way, and heaven forbid,
成为你的灵感， be an inspiration to you,
我太激动了。 I couldn't be more thrilled.
很好。 It's good.
浴室里有干净的毛巾。 There are fresh towels in the bathroom.
很高兴见到你，麦克斯。-你也是。 Really nice to meet you, Max. - You too.
祝你今天好好休息。 Have a good rest of the day.
我对我们的谈话感到很兴奋。 I'm really excited about our conversation.
你的书是我今年最喜欢的书之一。 Your book is one of my favorites of this year.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
我首先向大家介绍并欢迎大家 I'll begin by introducing and welcoming everyone
如果你想跟在我后面 and then if you just want to follow out after me
坐好 and get seated
一旦我介绍你认识。-是的。 once I introduce you. - Yeah.
你看了题目了吗？ Did you get a chance to look at the questions?
是的。-他们看起来都还好吗？ I did, yeah. - And did they all seem okay?
我是说，如果有什么你感觉不到的 I mean, if there is anything you don't feel
舒适的讨论…… comfortable discussing...
如果你觉得有什么太私人的，请告诉我。 or if anything feels too personal, please tell me.
你可以问我任何问题。 You can ask me anything.
♬我整夜工作 ♪ I work all night ♪
♬我做我的事 ♪ I do my thing ♪
♬只是在消磨时间 ♪ Just killin' time ♪
♬需要一个朋友♬ ♪ Need a friend ♪
♬这是我的生活吗？♪ ♪ Is this my life? ♪
♬开始还是结束？♪ ♪ Beginning or end? ♪
♬我可以重新开始吗？♪ ♪ Can I start again? ♪
♬我们能重新开始吗？♪ ♪ Can we start again? ♪
♬有一轮新月正在升起 ♪ There's a new moon on the rise ♪
♬逆转潮流，逆转潮流 ♪ Turn the tide, turn the tide ♪
♬我一直在走钢丝 ♪ I've been walking a thin line ♪
♬在天地之间♬ ♪ Between the Earth and the sky ♪
为什么我的现实占据了我所有的梦想？♪ ♪ Why do my realities take over All my dreams? ♪
为什么最纯洁的爱都要被机器过滤掉？♪ ♪ Why does all the purest love Get filtered through machines? ♪
♬给我一些好东西，比看起来的更好 ♪ Gimme something good That's even better than it seems ♪
为什么最纯洁的爱都要被机器过滤掉？♪ ♪ Why does all the purest love Get filtered through machines?♪
♬我整夜工作 ♪ I work all night
♬我做我的事[我做我的事]♬ ♪ I do my thing [I do my thing] ♪
♬只是在消磨时间 ♪ Just killin' time
♬需要朋友[朋友]♬ ♪ Need a friend [a friend] ♪
♬这是我的生活吗？♪ ♪ Is this my life?♪
♬开始还是结束？ ♪ Beginning or end?
♬我可以重新开始吗？ ♪ Can I start again?
♬我们能重新开始吗？ ♪ Can we start again?
♬天空中升起了一个新的太阳 ♪ There's a new sun In the sky ♪
♬你在哪里？我在哪儿？♪ ♪ Where are you? Where am I?♪
♬你一直在寻找吗 ♪ Have you been looking, ♪
♬就像我一直在寻找一个理由还是一个征兆？♪ ♪ Like I've been looking For a reason or a sign? ♪
♬为什么？哦,为什么?♪ ♪ Oh, why? Oh, why? ♪
为什么我的现实占据了我所有的梦想？♪ ♪ Why do my realities take over All my dreams? ♪
为什么最纯洁的爱都要被机器过滤掉？♪ ♪ Why does all the purest love Get filtered through machines?♪
♬给我一些好东西，比看起来的更好 ♪ Gimme something good That's even better than it seems ♪
为什么最纯洁的爱都要被机器过滤掉？♪ ♪ Why does all the purest love Get filtered through machines? ♪
♬我整夜工作 ♪ I work all night
♬我做我的事 ♪ I do my thing
♬只是在消磨时间 ♪ Just killin' time ♪
♬需要朋友吗？ ♪ Need a friend
♬这是我的生活吗？♪ ♪ Is this my life? ♪
♬开始还是结束？ ♪ Beginning or end?
♬我可以重新开始吗？ ♪ Can I start again?
♬我们能重新开始吗？ ♪ Can we start again?
♬我们能重新开始吗？♪ ♪ Can we begin again? ♪